Am I a mental disorder?



I am unpredictable and I will strike and bring your mood down faster than anything else. You can feel on top of the world with no worries on your heart and I will seep in a moments notice to steal your joy. I guess you could say that I am like a thief in the night who wreaks havoc and leaves uundetected. My job is to make you feel hopeless and prove that the progress you made will eventually push you back to square one.

Have you figured out who I am yet? Do you comprehend how I make your loved ones think you are unstable, forgetful and in another episode. I force myself into your life. I am never invited and I show up at the most inopportune times. I do not care how important your meeting is, or how your kids are counting on you. I cannot be concerned about how you want to stay in bed everyday.

Yes, you figured me out, I am clinical depression; your worst nightmare, the thought that makes you feel full of despair and tells you to give up. I am the thought that wakes you up in the middle of the night, if you finally get to sleep. I permeate your mind and try to reverse all the encouragement, positive thoughts and deeds to convince you life is just not worth it. Once I have control over your thoughts you will sink deeper and deeper into the dark hole.

There is a way to keep me at bay and make it harder for me to disrupt your life. However, the chances of you being successful are low because I send all of my friends to plant seeds. I send self-doubt, worry, and hopelessness. You can defeat me by thinking positively and refusing to give in to the seeds I am constantly planting. You must be relentless and have a plan to pull yourself out of the quicksand of sadness.

You must get up every day with your mind made up to push through no matter how you feel. You must get up every day determined that your best days are ahead, you must get up every day with an arsenal of positive thoughts, you must get up every day knowing you have friends you can call on for  uplifting. You have to get up every day with the mindset that today will be better than yesterday. You have to get up every day believing  you have something to contribute to this world, you have to get up every day knowing you are worthy and life is worth living.

If you feel you need a seek professional help please do not hesitate. You are not crazy. By the year 2020, suicide will be the number one cause of death in America. You do not have to suffer in silence. Ask someone to go with you. Please do not give up on yourself. Feel free to drop me a line; u_r_worth_it@yahoo.com

‘GIVING UP IS NEVER AN OPTION