In the years I have suffered from depression, I have never been able force myself to “feel better”, “just snap out of it”, or “just try and think positive.” This disease simply does not work that way. It is often times a feeling that cannot be described. I guarantee you that no one who suffers from depression wants to be depressed. Let me say this right away? Yes, there are “triggers”, but in my experience I just know I feel depressed.
For instance, maybe I have been invited to a gathering weeks before. On the actual day however, I just do not feel like going anywhere. I may shower that day or I may stay in pajamas and shower after midnight, I probably will not have an appetite and may sleep the day away.
There does not have to be a trigger such as, an argument, a bad day, financial problems or a nagging mother-in-law. As someone who struggles daily with depression I must make a conscious effort to be upbeat. Some days I do quite well and other days, It is the biggest barrier in my life. You cannot turn depression “off” and “on”? It is not a way to gain sympathy. I would not wish depression on my worst enemy. It is a miserable feeling.
Depression is a debilitating disease just like the rest of them and if left untreated can lead to suicidal ideation. Please do not wait to seek treatment or talk with someone about how you are feeling. You are not alone. There are so many people with the same feelings you have.
What will you do to fight your depression today?