THROUGH THE EYES OF DEPRESSION
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THROUGH THE EYES OF DEPRESSION

A DAY IN THE LIFE OF A DEPRESSED PERSON

by You Are Worth It on 09/02/14

WOUNDED SOULS

I take my psychotropic medication before I lay down to sleep.  It helps to slow down a mind that is constantly thinking, processing and evaluating the events of the day.  I listen to my favorite gospel songs to wind down and I start to think about how hopeless depression makes me feel.  My eyes
start to feel tired and I begin to yawn as the medication begins to take affect.
 My eyes grow heavier as I feel myself slipping away into a
sound slumber. I pray that the side effects from my medication will not be so bad; headaches, upset stomach, constipation or fatigue.

My alarm clock sounds and I look around my room and realize I still have an hour left to sleep because its only my first alarm.  I wake up an hour and fifteen minutes later and its now time torise and shine; face the day. As I step out
of bed my mind begins to register and begin to feel the disposition of the day.  Everyday, there is a cloud that hovers over my head; a constant reminder
that I have to work extremely hard to begin the smallest task and to make it through an entire day.

I walk downstairs to let my dogs outside and I come back in retreat to my room and sit in my chair for fifteen minutes. I have to leave my house in forty-five minutes to I need to shower and get dressed. I take my shower, find something to wear and gram an energy drink on my way to my car.
I hardly ever eat breakfast because most who suffer from
depression have a poor appetite. I can easily not eat until after 4pm in the afternoon having not realized I had not eaten. If I can just make it to work on-time, I can fake it the rest of the day and those I come into contact with will believe I am in good spirits and all is well in my life.

On days I feel overwhelmed with feelings of despair I am quiet and I may listen to music to boost my spirits; I may take a few breaks to disguise my feelings in case tears start to flow I cannot easily hide. I am brought to tears usually when I am having a day that causes anxiety and I am feeling over- whelmed. No one at work as ever caught me crying and they would never believe I suffer from clinical depression. I have an upbeat personality, I am humorous, I see the positive is almost everything but I would never want them to treat me differently because I suffer from depression.

I make it through the day but I do not have any plans for the evening so I drive straight home.  Once home I will do one of three things; #1) Go straight to my room and take a nap which could have me sleeping until the next morning where (I would have missed taking my medication) I will feel fatigued most of the day, or #2) I will watch TV (while working on my computer) for a few hours and not really feel hungry so I may eat a bowl of cereal or #3) I will walk my dogs or just lay in my chair and fall asleep.  I have expended all of my energy getting through the day.  I did the one thing that I must do; work. Everything else is expendable. I bring up my milk to take my medication and I start the routine of feeling tired, yawning and finally falling into a deep sleep.  I pray that tomorrow will be better and the cloud that follow me around
everyday wont be so hard on my tomorrow.

Living with depression is the most unpredictable situations to live with. It can be like a roller coaster up and down, and you are never really sure how you day will turn out. You are constantly praying and believing for healing but you are also trying to survive. Some nights you are restless and you seek out ways to help you feel better, other nights you are so fatigued you want to go straight to bed.  You really look forward to going to bed each night because you it can be restful, your mind is turned off and you do not feel any sadness or pain.  Some days you wish you good just sleep for a week and no one would both you.

A day in the life of the depressed is complex and the average person would not want to trade places with someone who is depressed.

YOU HAVE TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD

by You Are Worth It on 08/30/14

You have to keep moving forward

EVEN WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO POINT
EVEN WHEN YOUR LIFE SEEMS FULL OF DESPAIR
EVEN WHEN IT DOESN'T SEEM WORTH IT
EVEN WHEN EVERYTHING AROUND YOU IS FALLING APART
EVEN WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO GIVE UP
EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL YOU CANNOT TAKE ANOTHER STEP
EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL YOU CAN NO LONGER COPE
EVEN WHEN NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND
EVEN WHEN YOU JUST WANT TO STAY IN BED
EVEN WHEN A FRIEND TURNS THEIR BACK
EVEN WHEN YOU ARE AT YOUR WITS END
EVEN WHEN YOUR THOUGHTS ARE MISLEADING
EVEN WHEN GIVEN UP IS EASIER THAN MOVING FORWARD
EVEN WHEN EVERY DAY SEEMS WORSE THAN THE LAST
EVEN WHEN THE MEDICINE IS FAILING YOU
EVEN WHEN ALL YOU CAN DO IS CRY
EVEN WHEN NOTHING SEEMS TO CHANGE
EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL HOPELESS AND FULL OF DESPAIR

10 WAYS TO SURVIVE DEPRESSION

by You Are Worth It on 08/30/14

1.  The first key to surviving depression, is working and staying busy. 
2.  The second key to surviving depression is performing at least two    
     productive task everyday, no matter how small it may seem.
3.   The third key to surviving depression is exercising 1-2 times per week for  
      thirty minutes. (Building up to 3x per week)
4.   The fourth key to surviving depression is being compliant with your
       medication.
5.    The fifth key to surviving depression is praying and believing in my      
        healing.
6.    The sixth key to surviving depression is keeping up with / or developing a
        passion.
7.    The seventh key to surviving depression is to tell at least two friends if you  
        become suicidal
8.     The eighth key to surviving depression is to expose yourself to at least 15  
        minutes of sun everyday.
9.     The ninth key to surviving depression is allowing myself to be sad or
        down for no longer than a 24-48 hour period and then moving forward no
        matter what.
10.   The tenth key to surviving depression is accepting that depression is a
         disease, there is nothing wrong with me and I have to try harder to turn my
         dreams into a reality.

We can all survive, defeat and eventually conquer depression as long as we keep living.

LONG SUFFERING AND DEPRESSION

by You Are Worth It on 08/29/14

Long Suffering is a strength and not a weakness. As I speak of long suffering, I am specifically referring to this term from a biblical standpoint. Often times trials and tribulations permeate our lives and it may seem as though we are standing alone. We feel we are by ourselves to deal with the blows this unfair life deals us. The reality is, we are never alone even when our darkest hour has come and help is nowhere to be found. Long suffering shapes our character and tests our absolute faith in God.

Long suffering takes courage, but teaches patience and endurance equipping us with the wherewithal mentality we need to; overcome obstacles, defeat the enemy and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God will never forsake us. God helps us when we suffer beyond the limits of our own strength. We have all been sufficiently equipped with all that is needed to fulfill our purpose on the earth, achieve our personal dreams and annihilate anything that would keep us from our best. You possess the courage, fortitude, inner strength and stamina required to complete your life journey. You must stay on your course and avoid distractions and pitfalls designed to derail your future plans and successes. It is essential that you fight every day to keep your eyes on the prize. The prize is happiness, freedom and the fulfillment of your potential. Long suffering will become your biggest testimony.

You cannot give up, you are so close to a breakthrough and the pouring down of blessings from the heavenly father. It may seem hopeless, it may look impossible, it may be against all odds but nothing is too hard for our God.  God moves mountains, divinely intervenes, and causes your enemies to build you up. Long suffering will get you where you should be and take you places you never imagined. You are far too important to Almighty God to stop short of receiving all that He has for you. I implore you to continue going above and beyond when you feel unappreciated and continue giving from your heart of gold. God will pour out a blessing where there is not room enough to receive it all.

JUST BE THERE

by You Are Worth It on 08/27/14

The best help you can give someone who suffers from depression is to just be there. Show them you care by checking on them from time to time. Try to understand what they are going through and don't judge them or offer advice or try to fix them. They already feel alone and isolated. They already feel like an outcast because everything is a struggle: to get out bed, take a shower, get dressed, make breakfast. They HATE being depressed and feel like a burden to EVERYONE. Let them know they are not a burden and you genuinely care. The worst thing you can do to a depressed person is to ignore them or break a promise you made.

Depression not only affects the depressed person, but the individuals in their lives as well. It is very important to have faith that you can overcomes the obstacles depression places in your life knowing you can be healed from this disease. You are much stronger than you think. Many depressed individuals are working, maintaining a home for their family and trying to make each day count. It may seem easy to throw yourself a pity party and not face your depression head on. But, If you do that 
                        depression wins and you lose. Your family loses. 
Do not ever give up; its never and option. 
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